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24 May 2011 @ 11:24 pm
how many times are you going to do the same stupid shit and expect me to be okay with it?! how many times are you going to ignore my feelings and then make me feel like shit for saying something? why would you ever welcome people into your life knowing that they only caused pain in mine?! how many times am i going to put up with your fucking selfishness before i just leave? are you going to open your eyes before i do say goodbye or will you just say that i was a crazy bitch that annoyed you over little things?

i really hate you sometimes.......
Current Mood: enragedenraged
27 May 2008 @ 01:08 pm
The sun never came out today
I wonder where it goes
And why it went away

You never wanted me, did you?
Me the willing slave and
Blind to what was really true

The bridge has come
Crashing down on both our heads
Watch it crumble
What was it that we had said?

The clock is frozen
So are we
The silence permeates
And destroys what we used to be

You'll never lie to me again
When you said forever
We were never whole again


What was it that we said?
What was it that we said?
What was it...?
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Current Location: at work
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
27 May 2008 @ 01:07 pm
If we could go
To the start, my love
Then that would be a gift
To before we grew apart
To before we formed
The rift.
Current Location: at work
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
27 May 2008 @ 01:04 pm
When you look at me
With those hungry eyes
I want to run and disappear
To a place where I can
Always hide

When you touch me
With those greedy hands
Your fingers slither all around
Nearly slicing with your
Wedding band

When you kiss me
If you ever did or do
Your lips are unfamiliar
Since I had never met
The real you
Current Location: at work
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
27 May 2008 @ 01:02 pm
To be the ruler
Of a sand kingdom
Is no honor at all

For when the wind
Of change comes blowing
The castle always falls

And who would want
To rule over sand
That once stood oh, so tall?
Current Location: at work
Current Mood: blahblah
27 May 2008 @ 12:59 pm
There once was a girl who couldn't cry
No matter what she tried
Her little body full of scars
But her eyes were always dry

One day she met a boy
He liked her smile right away
She liked him too, she must confess
And they married the next day

At the wedding, dressed in white
She stared at her reflection
Behold, a single tear!
It shines with such perfection
And why the tear? And why then?
Here's the cruel injustice
Now that she was in love,
She would never smile again.
Current Location: at work
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
13 March 2008 @ 09:43 pm
sometimes i just wish i could go back in time and fix things.
stupid things i've said or done would all just be erased and no one would ever know the difference.
i wish i could undo last night when i told him how i really felt about him.
two years is a long time to be with someone without ever really being official. i felt weird and out of place. now we're barely talking and everything is so awkward. i feel so bad for hurting his feelings and making him sad. i just want things to be ok again.
i don't want to imagine losing a friend like him over something as stupid as a name....

forgive me.
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
08 March 2008 @ 11:32 pm
so yeah. it's saturday night. i'm here trying to get drunk but since i drink so much water during the day, i tend to pee quite frequently. so yeah, i get a nice buzz on and to the pee-pee room i go.
watching .....Deal or No Deal.
it's weird being stressed and tipsy at the same time. new feeling for me.....anyway, just trying to get in the habit of writing here when i feel like it.
see you guys later.
Current Location: my couch
Current Mood: drunk(almost drunk)
20 February 2008 @ 10:37 pm
a short poem that i wrote while in class the other day. i got stuck and i have no IDEA how to finish it.
thanks for reading <3

How long will i climb uphill for you on slopes that make me slip?
How long will i wait and cry for you when you don't shed a drip?
how much time will i spend with you when you can't waste an hour?
how much strength will i waste on you when i don't have the power?

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Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Esthero - My Torture
my dear friends,

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh it feels so fucking good to be on vacation!
i have time to relax, play video games, go out, eat out, and maybe even paint if i ever get to it.

anyway, happy holidays to everyone. i hope you got nice presents and are having fun.

lots of love <3
Current Location: my lovely couch
Current Mood: blahblah